She is a survivor borne of a horrendous childhood. She uses people - don't we all. But, she has mastered the art of getting what she wants and needs from people, mostly men.
She's not deliberately hurtful or malicious, I don't think, it just comes from her long honed instinct to survive and get through life as best as she can. She's not calculating or planning to take advantage of someone, I don't think, she sincerely means what she says to you - at the time. It's a purely instinctual behavior.
She moves through people with a sweet, sensual elan. She is demonstrable with a delicate balance of expressiveness and subtlety. When she is with you, she makes you feel as though you are the only thing on her mind.
But, when she is done with you, she leaves a gaping hole, for she has insinuated herself deeply into your very essence. And you are left wondering what the hell happened. Your very own instincts told you from the start - WATCH OUT! But, baser desires overruled. Then she moves on and you are left reeling and wondering how she could be so abrupt with her feelings. But, you can't really be mad at her for long. You need her now. Not for the lost love because you finally realize that's history for her. You need her for the energy, the inspiration, the dimension of excitement and possibilities she helped you see. And she remains there for that if you can overcome the desires that remain. Now, that's where it really gets tough.....
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