Surviving and Being Lavender

She is a survivor borne of a horrendous childhood. She uses people - don't we all. But, she has mastered the art of getting what she wants and needs from people, mostly men.
She's not deliberately hurtful or malicious,  I don't think, it just comes from her long honed instinct to survive and get through life as best as she can. She's not calculating or planning to take advantage of someone, I don't think, she sincerely means what she says to you - at the time. It's a  purely instinctual behavior.
She moves through people with a sweet, sensual elan. She is demonstrable with a delicate balance of expressiveness and subtlety. When she is with you, she makes you feel as though you are the only thing on her mind.
But, when she is done with you, she leaves a gaping hole, for she has insinuated herself deeply into your very essence. And you are left wondering what the hell happened. Your very own instincts told you from the start - WATCH OUT! But, baser desires overruled. Then she moves on and you are left reeling and wondering how she could be so abrupt with her feelings. But, you can't really be mad at her for long. You need her now. Not for the lost love because you finally realize that's history for her. You need her for the energy, the inspiration, the dimension of excitement and possibilities she helped you see. And she remains there for that if you can overcome the desires that remain. Now, that's where it really gets tough.....

Little Has Changed

"I am amused by the shortsighted folly of the very wealthy men and how large a proportion of them stand for what is fundamentally corrupt and dishonest."
"We cannot submit to the domination in the Republican party of those selfish interests which have long felt that the government was simply an instrument to further their ends."

-Teddy Roosevelt, himself a Republican, expressing concern about members of his own party losing sight of their  commitment to the people.

What the hell is it with so many people that they are so sure what is in your best interest that they feel compelled to inform you how to act? If, by just being our natural selves, creates discomfort in someone, they judge us based on their prejudices, inhibitions, preconceived opinions or so called values. With righteousness, they scowl, scold, report, gossip and try to change, stifle or censor us so they can be more at ease. The sad part is, they usually succeed because, on some level, most of us want to fit in. Society frowns on the free spirit, the jester, the person who just wants to be free to be.....themselves.

Tesla said, "Like the planets and the stars and the moons, we are all part of an interconnectedness." Like each planet, each star, each moon, we can rise and be seen outside the whole in our own unique way. Like a meteorite, we can have an impact. Most people look at a meteorite and see it as just a chunk of black rock on fire that plummets to earth and think no more of it. Creative people and free thinkers look beyond what they first see and recognize the many properties of everything. Long ago they learned that a meteorite has healing and protective properties. 3000 years ago the Inuit used pieces for trade and to make tools. Just a black rock? Hardly! Look beyond what we are taught, what we think we learned, what we assume and what others have told us and, as Walt Whitman suggested, "Dismiss whatever insults your own soul".

Hell, why not be the meteorite? Make an impact. We are all born with certain skills, talents, gifts, or capacities that we can hone to enhance ourselves. Don't be afraid to go with who you are.  Kurt Vonnegut lamented that we have lost the art of "becoming". Get it back!

From childhood in society and in school, we are "taught" how to think linearly. Embrace your own way to learn. Get your hands dirty, take chances, don't get caught up in the trite concept of "thinking outside the box", jump in and out of as many boxes as you can find/create. Don't just think - BE.